Dear Bullies

I think about the time
where my life, what once was mine
was taken from me
but you didn't see

That I think about the end
no more fake or pretend
we will graduate one day,
I'll move on, my separate way

What you miss, girl
when you're in someone else's world
cause you never let it go
never leave me alone

Worry about you
it makes it easier, it's true
if you really, truly care
it's ok, but don't you dare

come into my world,
and make trouble for me, girl
I have enough without you being mean
as insignificant as it may seem

Bullied Inspiration

Suicide Awareness Day

In case you don't know, today is Suicide Awareness day. OVER A MILLION PEOPLE ATTEMPT SUICIDE EVERY YEAR. A GOOD PORTION SUCCEED. Suicide is one topic that I feel very strong about, and here's why: Last year, when I was in 7th grade, I was having a really rough time. I was getting picked on at school, from people who thought it was funny, and who had no sense of how to act. I was going through some serious friendship issues: my friends would constantly give me a hard time about every little thing, and when it wasn't one person, it was somebody else. It was just little things, and some of it was meant as a joke, but it wasn't funny to me. And it built up over time until it got to the point where everything that everyone did got under my skin. I was also going through a rough patch with my parents, who got divorced many years ago, but these days, I'm starting to see what an effect it really had on my life. I would scream at my parents, cry, run, everything in my power to make them regret getting divorced. And then there's the problem that I don't get enough sleep. I will try to go to bed, and then I can't and the later it gets, the more upset I get, until finally, I can't take it anymore, and I'm crying hysterically, and I feel like my world is over. I just wanted it to end, right there, I kept thinking it would never get better, my parents are jerks, my friends aren't my friends, nobody cares. I wanted to commit suicide right there.

But then, I thought to myself: I am such a hard working, driven person, with a high energy personality and a happy vibe coming from me. It made my heart glow when I made people smile. Making people happy, making them laugh, helping them, means so much to me. What would happen if I wasn't around to make them smile anymore? I realized that I MATTER. That I WAS BORN FOR A REASON. THAT I WAS ONLY 12 OR 13 AT THE TIME AND I HAD SO MUCH MORE LIVING TO DO. That THE WORLD WOULD NOT BE THE SAME WITHOUT ME. THAT PEOPLE WOULD CARE IF I DIED.  And that's why I am writing this right now. I realized that my friends were awesome, and that I was just being to irritable. That my parents are divorced and that is that, and there are a million upsides to that too. That bullies are insecure jerks that have nothing better to do with their time than pick on people. But I'm no punching dummy. I have my place in this world. I MATTER.

It's said that we're given no challenges we can't handle. And what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And if you need help, ask me. I'm here for you.

If you committed suicide, I would miss you.

Strong Inspiration.

What makes YOU happy?

Life is full of good times and bad times. The bad times can be hard to get through, soooo.... think about this: what makes you happy? There are a variety of things that make me happy. As soon as you know what makes you happy, try to find as many pictures of that thing as possible. What you do with the pictures is now totally up to you. I hang them up on a wall in my room, but you could also put them in your binder, keep them in your school locker, whatever. As long as they are in a place where you will see them often. Whenever you're upset,  look at the pictures. This might sound like a kindergarden-ish thing to do, but if you think about it, so is napping....and I LOVE NAPPING!!! (again, I happen to be 14, NOT in kindergarden :). And besides, it really helps.

By the way, for all those directioners out there.....(Not me :) pictures of them do count :)

Happy Inspiration

There are some days..

...when you feel like you never fit in. Those are the days that you need to stop trying to fit in to that crowd that will never accept you. There are mean people in this world, and if you don't fit their impossible standards, they won't include you. Besides, it's likely that even if they did include you, you would still be an outsider, or still be unhappy. So just be yourself. If anyone hates you for being you, they don't deserve to be around you.

...when you mess up big time, and wish you could fix it. Life is full of bad times. Any time something is happening that's really awesome or really bad, I remind myself that it will eventually be over. In this case (when it's something bad), just tough it out and get through. You won't be the first person to make a mistake. :)

...when something horrible happens in your life that you had no control over. Don't let it get to you too much. People sometimes spend YEARS in sadness over what happens in their family. When my parents got divorced, I felt like my life was over. I couldn't breathe. And MORE AND MORE FAMILIES are getting divorced (not saying that your family will, just that lots of people's families do :). You are never the only one that has your situation. Just don't waste your life being sad over it. Sure, it's natural to grieve, but (for example), if a relative died, they would never have wanted you to be sad your whole life. Cry a little, then let it go. You can't stop living because someone else did.

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Rambling Inspiration (but don't worry, I'm done :)